Difficulty Studying(2001-2012) Part 3

Despite everything that my dad did for me, my effort to try to studied just died,
However everything changed when I was in Form 2.
I met this class teacher, a Malay teacher named Miss Puan Hasliza who teaches Mathematics.

Back in my secondary school, my brain just dint want to study, all I want was to just pass and I'm all good.
When this teacher gave math homework, I just dint want to do because I was difficult and all the other boys and girls were afraid of her because she was fierce.
All I wanted to do back then was to just copy other people homework and call it mine.

However, she realized that I was not paying attention in class and dint do her homework too, one day she called my dad and I had receive a really horrible-horrible scolding from my dad.
I remember my dad told me that:

"The teacher scold's you was because she wants you to change, cant you understand something as simple as that!"

And since that day I hated her so much, but what happened next was despite me hating her I still listen to her and paid attention to her in class, how she manage to solve the math questions despite at the beginning the math questions seems tough.
All the classmates in my class was just shocked at how she manage to solve all the math questions that fast but it seems so difficult at first too.

From there, I gave it a chance and started doing it myself too, and I even gave her a chance to teach me by walking to her class table asking her the math questions.

Though that, I realized that by learning how to solve a problem in math, it can also makes us think outside the box and solve real problems in life.

Since then other students were coming towards me and asking me to teach them how to solve this particular math questions and I helped them,
From there I realized that, this is only math, why not put effort into studying other subjects so that I can hopefully teach others too.

From there I remember I live by the phase,
Knowledge is power, it is even more powerful then a sword too if you use it correctly.

And also:-
Hendak seribu daya, tidak seribu dalih.

Difficulty Studying(2001-2012) Part 2

Initially. my education was doing alright when I was 6 years old,

But since then my education was consistently dropping right after my mom bought me a PlayStation 1.

My tadika teacher told my parents, that I am not one of the smartest students there, but 1 good thing about me is that I am hardworking, and the teacher showed my parents that though hard work I can after all get good grades.

Instantly when my mom hears that she was so happy and she purchased for me a PlayStation 1 to keep me encourage to work hard.

But since then my education has been consistently dropping, to a point that I feel that I totally have no mood to study and in my head all I want to do is play video games.

And my mom would used video games as a way to get me to do house chores too.

My dad would bought me all different kinds of exercise books for me to do exercise on, he used to say that, if I want to play video games then I must finish at least 20 questions correctly.

But that method dint work too as I do house chores and I still get to play video games,

And when my parents go groceries shopping, I would sneakily turn on the PlayStation to play video games. 

And when my parents find out I did that, well I get canned by them.

During that time I just dint want to study, no matter how much money my dad has spent on me, because all I want to do is to just play video games.

Difficulties Studying(2001-2012) Part 1

When I was a l little boy, I never liked studying,

I hate the idea of studying and I hate all the homework that I have to do and all those tuition center I have to attend.

My dad used to say this to others that, "Asking you to study is the same as asking you to Die"

As I was never a smart boy to begin with, but I was lucky because I had the privilege to attend to home tuition to be educated after school hours.

But in the beginning, my dad did definitely tried he's best, he used to stick a posters of all the ABCD on the door so that I can memorize my ABCD, but after I can read all my ABCD well, he then ask me to read it backwards from Z onward, and I just cant do it. When my dad was with he's friends, he will tell others too how I cannot read it backwards and how other kids could.

Even until today I still cant do it. 

Back in the early 1990's. I remember I used to cry while doing my homework too,

My mom would hold my hands and guide me to write my ABCD and math too, 

And if I have written it wrong then my mom will scold me, and ask me to re-write until I have gotten in correct.

To a point where I have actually cried on the exercise books and I cant continue.

Even when I was 5 years old, I would sit at the living room alone, when my parents all went up to their bedroom with all the lights closed. I will still continue to do my homework until I have finally gotten it correctly.

My only source of light after 10pm was the reflection of the light from my house stairs, despite that I still have to continue writing.

Bullies in my primary school. (2000-2003)

Yess the primary school's too
Even in primary schools I get bullied in SKBRP(Sekolah Kebangsaan Bukit Rahman Putra)
It started when I first newly join the school when I was unfamiliar with the whole place,
Some of the so called friends would throw stones at my head and some even spit on my face when I am not looking, whether or not they claims it was accidentally or it was purposely done, when they are being questioned by the teacher.


My dad sure did step up for me against those bullies by attending to the school to see those bully himself back then,
The class teacher back then dint do much also, they were just inside of the class to teacher and gotten out once the class was over.

But by far the worst was in 2003 when I was in the last class in my primary school.
During that time, I was with all those naughty Malay and Indian boys that did not wants to study at all, I used to get teased yet again because of my surname Lai and also because of my role as the class monitor when I was in standard 3.


There was a huge amount of pressure being the only Chinese class monitor in class back then,
I remember I used to have to write down the names of the naughty boys and girls who makes a lot of noise in class while the teacher is not present,

But what the teacher did not know was, the person who write the other student names who makes lots of noise will often get bullied by other's because we have written their name inside of that book.
So yet again other students dislike me for doing my role.
Therefore I was consistently being teased in class, to a point where I asked my parents, can I not go to school? As I was getting bullied or can I go to a different school?
But no my parents insist I continue to go to the same school, because it's nearby my house.

Bullies in my secondary school. 2010-2011

Studying in my secondary school is definitely one of the toughest years I've gone though back in the early 2007's

Back in the year 2010-2011,

I used to get bullied in class just because I wanted to study,

When I was in my classroom waiting for the teacher to arrive, my classmates used to tease me for trying to study, and make loud noises running around the whole classroom corridors and even going to other classes just to chat with their friends. 

We even had receive noise complaints because those students like to run around in class throwing things all over the place, kicking chairs and tables like some wild animals.

I used to be the one getting bullied because when the teacher has not arrive on time, then I will search for the teacher to attend to the class room, and whenever the teacher has some questions for the student, I manage to answer those questions as a class monitor.

You see, back then in the year 2010 when I was still in form 4, I was in a classroom whereby the teachers will teach chemistry and physics but also accountancy as well.

I was choosen to be the class monitor, with no class assistance, and class money collector as well. I was literally a 1 man show, even sweep the class floor myself everyday.

The classroom has some smart students, but those students are never the kind hearted people that you would find in korean drama, instead they just love to have fun in class, personally  they are smart because their parents have money to send them to one of the well known tuition center simply called 'Perfection', but their attitude in lazy just lazy.

While for me I had the privileged of studying in Kepong, and attend to the tuition center Kasturi instead.

There was a time when I went to the teacher room to ask some questions about math that I don’t understand, and when I came back my school bag was actually in the rubbish bin, and it was done by a so called prefect as well.

I even had some indian boys showing their asses in front of my face because I complaint those indian boys to the teacher for bullying me, but my school teacher did nothing. They did Nothing at all because they mentioned that they dint see it with their own eyes, and that was their excuses.