Resitting for Exams

 I had failed 6 subjects in total throughout my whole course in TARC, in that 2 years,

But in the end, 

I had to resit 4 exams in total on top of the 5 subjects in the last semester to graduate.

It was nearly impossible at first because I had to take 9 subjects to graduate, 

And if I don't pass the test or failed in either on of the exams then well, I have to stay back a year to resit the exams then only I can graduate.

Each subject that you need to resit in TARC, cost RM100 too.

My parents wanted to help me to graduate the best they could, my mom made a deal with me during that time. telling me that if I manage to pass all the test and graduate then she will buy me a PS4 without me paying a single cent.

Thankfully they paid the cost to resit the exams,

But if I failed, then well, I will have to pay her back the cost slowly.

During that time, I wanted the PS4 really badly because I am a gamer and I love video games, and I dint wanted to pay back my mom like an installment basis too.

On top of that I dint wanted to feel ashamed because the rest of my course mates are going to graduate and being the course rep and not graduating is just shameful.

Plus if my evil classmates graduate and I dint graduate it will be like the most shameful thing too.

Finally if I failed, then my then girlfriend during that time will think that I am really dumb.

So after a long consideration, I've decided to take that risk and resit all 5 subjects and take the final 5 exams too.

I had to study really hard day and night, listening back to all the recording that I've recorded in the lecturer call, referring to notes from the tutor and even search and make new notes from my old lecturer original notes.

During the exam time I dint even play any video games and even prayed hard to God to allow me to pass my exam and graduate.

I wanted to graduate so badly, I even called the lecturer personally to ask the lecturer if there was any last minute revision classes that I can join so that I can pass the subject.

The fear of seeing all my friends graduate and me not graduating kept me going on and on.

I told myself that, 

No matter what is the outcome, as long as I have tried my best that's all that really matters